Ellen Stafford (chicaboo25) wrote,
Ellen Stafford
chicaboo25

I haven't written a proper entry for ages. I got back with Gareth but it just didn't work out. It's me, I love and care for him but I just don't want to be in the relationship right now. There are things that get to me that just can't be solved. So I think it's better for Gareth and myself to call it a day. I hate hurting him but I can't go on. So I am single. Sometimes I feel happy about being single because it means I can relax and do what I want to do when I want to do it. Sometimes I feel lonely too. I am sure I will find the right person for me sometime, when I am ready, and he comes along. When I think back I haven't been single since I was 16. I have been flitting from one relationship to another and not really taking the time out to figure what I want in life. It's almost like I had to have someone to be happy and thats not right.

Recently I have been relaxing. I have also been giving some tablets from the doctors to help with my weight and polycystic ovaries. In the first month I lost half a stone. This month I didn't lose any, which was my own fault because I was a bit bad with having takeaways. At least I didn't put anymore on. One good thing is mum bought me a steamer which is great to cook veg in so I am enjoying cooking good food instead of the rubbish I was having before. I am really going to try hard now. My nan is giving me her treadmill so I am going to use that too. It's a really good one so I am hoping to get that down here in the next few weeks.

Anyway I better get on. I will try to read some of my friends journals as well because I have had a long break. Any important news then fill me in here :)
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