May 28th, 2006

Today...

Today I have had a rough day....last night I was really poorly with my chest. I didn't sleep all night and Nige nearly took me to the hospital as my chest was really painful. Last night I realised what a good friend nigelb28 is to me. He really has been a good mate and we chatted a lot about things last night. He helped me a lot.

Anyway I finally got to bed about 8am this morning and then got really angry because Anna and Ben was making so much noise and I really needed my sleep. I didn't go to Makro in the end because I was too poorly. So Nige, Anna, Ben and Lil went and got a few bits and bobs. Nigel bought me a book and a guillotine to cut my autograph photos that I print out and send to celebs etc.

This evening I got up and watched BB and Nige and I have watched the film "Fun with Dick and Jane" which was pretty cool, I like films you can just sit and relax and not have to worry about following the story.

I received three autographs today which I am pleased with. I got Al Murray the comedian, Freddy Adu the football/soccer player and a great picture of Status Quo signed by all members! Well chuffed :)

In the middle of the night....

I have been awake coughing again tonight....well its morning now...anyway I came downstairs for a bit and then decided to go back up and cuddle in to Nige....he woke up and we got chatting and I have made a decision that I am going to give things a go with him. I do care about Nige....I have spent most of the last couple of years hugging and kissing him everytime we meet. I am scared of committment and even though we are just seeing each other I still have my times where I get scared and feel things are too much. Which is why I have never really made anything official with Nige though at the same time I haven't kissed anyone except for James which Nige knows about.

I feel now is the time to make it official. I have a lot of love and respect for Nige. I may find relationships difficult, I am sure this has something to do with my mum and dad splitting and how much deep down it has hurt me, but I do care for Nige and we have a LOT in common. Both our families like us, which is a first for me because I usually don't get on well with other people's parents...they scare me heh.

With Nige I can be myself....I can belch, fart, swear etc and Nige just knows its me heh. I feel safe with Nige. He is a special guy and he is mine!

Ken Loach...

Yay Ken Loach has won the Palme d'Or at Cannes! Well chuffed for him. He is a cool director. I remember watching KES as a kid. All the Bath City supporters will be well pleased he is always down at the games and donates a lot to the club.

Dad got me his autograph last year which is ace....