Postman came this morning and I received an autograph I can't even remember writing off for. Must have been an email request. Its a personalised picture of Lawrence Dallaglio.....not complaining as he is pretty cool :) Also received a competition win from CITV which is a DVD called "The Little Polar Bear Lars and the Little Tiger" which will be great for Lilly in a year or so, I will have to put it up in my cupboard for a birthday or christmas present. Reminds me that I need to get back into entering competitions....been spending way too much time using IRC, checking out forums and things.
I am feeling really quite low today. I spoke to Nige on the phone about 10 minutes ago and he wants to go to Longleat on Sunday and I just don't want to. I feel shit about myself at the moment. I think I am a really boring person but when I think of the weekend all I like to do is rest, relax and do nothing apart from of course work which is what I do everyday of my friggin' life...this is it....if I go out for a day I have to work before I go....work when I get back....it just ends up being so tiring. I am boring. No wonder I am never happy and no wonder I never keep a boyfriend or anything because they pressure me to go and do things to the stage where they end up pushing me away. No one believes that I have had post viral fatigue. No one understands that I can't cope with rushing about.
Just really fed up with being me at the moment.