I was thinking today about things like Friends Reunited...how trying to find someone from the past can ruin your dreams when you was younger....let me explain.
When I was 13 I fell in love ... haha yeah right....ok it was more of a case of I thought I was in love. I went to an all girls school so I didn't meet many boys, infact at the time I was at Stonar School which was a private boarding school, though luckily I didn't board there, I was a day pupil. Stonar was an awful place to be for me. My Nan is well off and she paid for me to go there. I went to Stonar because Grosvenor High School closed down. To me Grosvenor was the best school ever. I was only there a year before it closed. There was 137 pupils in the whole school and only twelve in my class, it was just along the road from where I lived and it was boys and girls. Anyway it closed and I went to Stonar which was an all girls ladeda school. The girls there were horrible, especially to me, they didn't think I belonged there because my father was a postman and my mother was a housewife, therefore I didn't deserve to be there. Their Daddies was solicitors, lawyers, doctors etc...the hours were long. I didn't get home until about 6pm on a normal day and on a Wednesday until 7:30pm.
So weekends for me was amazing because I got to see the only boy of my age I sort of knew and that was Lee Collier, he was the local paper boy....to me Lee was amazing, he was cute, funny and I really wanted to be his girlfriend and it was so innocent. All I wanted was to hold his hand and kiss him. Thats all it was about.....I chased after him and dreamt about him....My Lee....I still have a picture of him
I never got to be his girlfriend. All I was to him was someone to laugh at and someone to take money from. Anyway when I was 20 I still used to think about Lee....in the same way as I did back then that I wish he had been my boyfriend so I did a silly thing, I sent him a letter to his old house in the hope his mum still lived there. It got to him and he called me and asked me out for a drink. I said yes that it would be nice to catch up....but then an hour after his call I received a text message saying "fancy a one night stand?" I knew then that I wasnt going to meet Lee.
All what I thought of Lee from my teenage life has gone because all I see now when I look at his picture or hear his name is that one sentence.
The past is the past and maybe its better to stay in the past....