Ellen Stafford (chicaboo25) wrote,
Ellen Stafford
chicaboo25

Moving on....

Tonight I have deleted a friend from my friends list who I loved.....its not that I don't care about him but because I love him and it hurts too much reading his few and far between entries. I realise now that I loved him but he didn't love me back, he never loved me, if he had loved me then things would be different but they are not. There is no point even being friends anymore because it just hurts me. I have had my feelings played with and I just don't want to feel the way I feel anymore.

I think this is for the best. I am sure he is jumping up and down with happiness now he has shaken me off. He thinks just because we didn't have sex that stuff didn't matter to me...that I don't have feelings. Well I do....

This is me moving on....this is me being honest....this is me wanting to move on and to find happiness somewhere sometime....and I can't if I have the same "what if" hanging around my neck. I guess some people think "I love you" means nothing but to me it does.

Anyway, I doubt any of that made much sense as I am tired.

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