Ellen Stafford (chicaboo25) wrote,
Ellen Stafford
chicaboo25

In the middle of the night....

I have been awake coughing again tonight....well its morning now...anyway I came downstairs for a bit and then decided to go back up and cuddle in to Nige....he woke up and we got chatting and I have made a decision that I am going to give things a go with him. I do care about Nige....I have spent most of the last couple of years hugging and kissing him everytime we meet. I am scared of committment and even though we are just seeing each other I still have my times where I get scared and feel things are too much. Which is why I have never really made anything official with Nige though at the same time I haven't kissed anyone except for James which Nige knows about.

I feel now is the time to make it official. I have a lot of love and respect for Nige. I may find relationships difficult, I am sure this has something to do with my mum and dad splitting and how much deep down it has hurt me, but I do care for Nige and we have a LOT in common. Both our families like us, which is a first for me because I usually don't get on well with other people's parents...they scare me heh.

With Nige I can be myself....I can belch, fart, swear etc and Nige just knows its me heh. I feel safe with Nige. He is a special guy and he is mine!
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