Ellen Stafford (chicaboo25) wrote,
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Secret Journals...

I just found someone I used to LOVE and I mean LOVE has a secret journal....and it has proved to me what an idiot I was....I mean I fell in love with him and I am not going to deny that but he just hurt me too many times and now I read this journal and I see what he writes about me...and it just prooves he never cared about me at all...

A quote about me....

"She obviously lied through her teeth when she told me she loved me, it was another lie when she said that she cared and at the end of the day I have better things to do than play games with a little girl who can't decide what she wants with her life! Let her go on and fuck up her own life, other peoples lives, do whatever she wants, she's NOT going to mess with mine anymore!"

That has to be the biggest load of shite I have read.

1) I wasn't the married one. He was the one playing games. He was the one who wouldn't leave her.
2) I put him first, I made sure I was around to talk to him, I probably even upset Nige about it because I talked to him about this person a lot.
3) I am not the pathetic one who sits on IRC now flirting with other pathetic slutty girls trying to wind me up! Except it isn't actually working because I have gone beyond caring, just don't want to sit there and watch someone else get sucked in.
4) I was the one who sat here all the time crying....I was the one who did the loving....

Oh and this one....

"Oh my god i am so glad now that nothing "very serious" happened. Yes there was the 'hands on' approach and the rest, but at this moment im so glad we didnt't have sex because ot would just so be weird right now. It's strange really, i'm really trying not to think about her, but she's still in there!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! I did all this with Amanda for six-ish months, i dont want to go through it again. That was the most annoying, depressing time i went through, not something I really want to repeat."

So there you go...proof number two that I wasn't his first victim in recent times.....and the person I feel sorry for the most is his poor wife. He is the one who needs to sort his life out! He just wants to have the best of both worlds. I am glad he is history because he has a lot of growing up to do and I am a lot better off without him in my life.

*** End of Rant....Feeling much better now ****
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