I am now 17.5 1/2 stone.....that is a fucking lot!!!
I am disappointed in myself but like I said I knew this was going to be the case. Anyway I am going to record my weight in my journal. Yes I am ashamed of myself. Yes everyone thinks I am a lard. Yes I am unattractive.
I need everyone in my family to support me this time....instead of bringing in cakes etc.
Tomorrow I need to go and get some weightwatcher meals and start using my treadmill.
I feel I need to record my weight in my journal to prove I can do it....I know I can lose some....I know I am never going to be mega thin or anything but I have to do this for my health. I am doing this for me....how can anyone ever love me when I hate myself so much.
No one even fancies me anymore and I am sure thats because I am fat.